You'd think I'd shot their children
From the way that they are talking
And there's no point in responding
Cause it will not make them stop
And I am tired of explaining
And of seeing so much pain
In the very same safe haven
Where I used to just see helping
I've been drunk and skipping dinner
Eating skin from off my fingers
And I tried to call my brother
But he no longer exists
I keep forgetting to remember
That he would have been much prouder
If he saw me shake these insults off
Instead of getting bitter
I am bigger on the inside
But you have to come inside to
See me otherwise you're only hating
Other people's low-res copies
You'd think I learned my lesson
From the way they keep on testing
My capacity for pain
And my resolve to not get idle
But though my skin is thickened
Certain spots can still be gotten
It is typically human of me
Thinking I am different
To friends hooked up to hospital machines
To cure their cancer
And there is no better place
Than from this waiting room to answer
The French kid who wrote an email
To the website late last night
His father raped him
And he's scared
He asks me how do you keep fighting
And the truth is I don't know
I think it's funny that he asked me
Cause I don't feel like a fighter
Lately I am too unhappy
You are bigger on the inside
But your father cannot see
You need to tell someone
Be strong and somewhere
Some dumb rock star truly loves you
You'd think I'd get perspective
From my view here by the bedside
It is difficult to see the ones I love
So close to death
All their infections and procedures
And the will to live at all in question
Can I not accept that my own problems
Are so small
You took my hand when you woke up
I have been crying in the darkness
We all die alone
But I am so so glad that you are here
You whisper "We are so much bigger on the inside."
You need everybody some day
When you're lying where I am you'll finally get it
Beauty we are so much bigger
Than another one can ever see
But trying is the point of life
So don't stop trying
Promise me.