I remember awaking, but being half awake
Like"¦ basically, feeling like I was the only person in the world
There are people around that like know where to get to that, know a way to like talk to that.
And feel like cause"¦ I don't fully"¦ conscious. I wasn't fully like"¦ able to experience the world at all. And like"¦ I don't know
It didn't feel like it was ever going to change. Not sure what it was like. Like"¦ It didn't feel like"¦ my life was ever going to be the same
Sort of like"¦ you know"¦ just a bunch of chaos up there, like above me and like around me but I couldn't like. I had no access to. And that's probably what made it feel more like hell