Little did I know it then
The pictures on the heads of pins
"˜Be easier than living is
Easier to watch you die
Lost what little luck was left
It's not enough to pay the rent
Not enough to force repentance
Not enough to make you pray
And don't tell me "˜bout the sins of man
I've felt the sting of God's right hand
I find him after school in bed
And don't know if he's drunk or dead
A slow but steady breath means
Live to wreck another day
It's terrible to cross my mind
That I should do him in this time
And I could find a better life
Become a burden on the state
You can't run when it's all you know
You'll just have to wait to go
And you can't hurt me "˜cause I've been true
Your horrid life caught up to you
But I got bruises that you can't see
If there's a god, take him from me.