I am full of empty threats
Passive aggressions and
Manic depression and double standards
I am full of worry that will not float me here
I will sink to the bottom
And I think my neighborhood is safe
That I will not get bottles thrown at my head
On my way home
That my cat won't get attacked
By unleashed and aggressive dogs
Just mimicking their owners of similar caliber
The sun shone for a second
Shedding light on my right shoulder
And in it the sum: one big diamond
Atrophied and faceted
With an encrypted color code
A rainbow to my two tone
I am full of past regret
Keeping me static
And repeating the same mistakes
I am full of minor events and impulsive moments
Now the substance of my everyday
And reason why I do or don't leave the house
I need to get my head out of the sand
And go somewhere I haven't been
It's hard for me to imagine what I might find
I'm afraid that we cannot
Make a mark on this world anymore
Because it is against new laws
So I am counting down the days until 2008