Forty-One False Starts

Leonardo's Bride

i've been feeling like the old man and the sea,

you asked me if i was over it,

i'll never be,

it's all been torn apart,

forty-one false starts.

if i could be so brave,

a little lenny bruce, like i didn't care.

i'm working on it,

i am working,

see these hands are so very tired.

i feel like such a loser on some dumb crusade.

i feel so caught between this whole love and hate thing.

so what if i wear a bullseye on my heart,

forty-one false starts.

so much is left unsaid.

i wanted to clear the air,

you said it was perfectly clear.

i'm working on it,

i am working,

see these hands are so very tired.