Giving Up Everything

Natalie Merchant
Giving up everything,
"¨my hungry ghost of hopefulness."¨
Giving up everything,
"¨not haunted by wanting this."¨
Giving up everything,
"¨the fortune I was saving. "¨
Giving up everything,"¨
I mercy-killed my craving."¨
Giving up everything,
"¨I've opened up my eyes for this."¨
Giving up everything,
"¨see the whole magnificent emptiness."¨
Gave what I want for how it is,
"¨for the stone inside and the bitterness,
"¨for the sweetness at the core of it."¨
Giving up everything,"¨
the master plan, the scheming."¨
Giving up everything,
"¨my cursed search for meaning."¨
Giving up everything,
"¨the compass and the map I was reading."¨"¨
The hinterlands I'm leaving,"¨
I'm finally leaving behind."¨
Giving up everything,
"¨the big to-do, the hullabaloo,
the tug-of-war for some twisted truth.
"¨For the everlasting ache of it,"¨
no longer slave, not chained to it,
"¨no gate, no guard, no keeper,
"¨no guru, master, teacher."¨"¨
See the slow-receding faces
"¨dissolve to black, no traces.