I Really Loved Harold

Emiliana Torrini

"I Really Loved Harold"

They told me when I was little,

I'd go to heaven if I was good.

Now I'm a long way from little,

'Cause I tried to find heaven,

'Cause I thought that I could.

I thought that I could.

And I thought I loved Harold,

And I really loved John,

I really loved Alphy

I almost loved Tom.

I loved them so easy,

And I loved them so free.

Now I don't think that heaven

Will wanna love me.

Hallo, song of the willow,

The dreams under my pillow,

Turned to tears that I cried.

Beauty and love are our riddle,

Never to answer, but always to try.

And, boy, did I try.

And I tried with Harold,

And I tried with John.

I tried with Alphy,

And almost with Tom.

I left myself open,

For the whole world to see.

Now I don't think that heaven

Will wanna love me.

So I said goodbye to Harold,

And goodbye to John.

Goodbye to Alphy,

And goodbye to Tom.

I loved them so easy,

And I loved them so free.

Now I don't think that heaven

Will wanna love me.

Oh say, can you see?

By the dawn's early light

No light will shine me