If I Had Been a Better Man

There were kings and queens and could have beens

And pretenders to the throne

I was a sweet contender then

Now my seeds they've all been sown

I scorched the earth behind me

I could have made a better plan

Yeah if I had been a better man

My promises were not to keep

But thrown into the dirt

There must be more I told myself

As I buttoned up my shirt

Well I could paint myself in glory now

And be proud of who I am

Yeah I had been a better man

Stumbling through deep suburbs of my mind

As secrets of silence unwind

I will sing you so long

Now only love

Only love makes me strong

You charity I took as mine

I claimed it as my own

I followed my ascending star

To far away from home

Well I was mesmerized by shiny things

Now in frozen time I stand

Yeah if I had been a better man

Now I'm kneeling and I'm digging deep

Deep into the ground

I'm searching for my soul to keep

Like a burried treasure found

In dreams I speak in ancient tongues

Lost in wind and sand

Yeah if only I had been a better man