Each of these old light leaves is dirt,
tiny bone hands that used to be alive
at the deja vu dream scene end
of a lifelong relationship
is my hair on the bathroom floor,
my smaller selves down the sewer somewhere,
under berkeley, cincinatti, or on tour
and hotel lobby ladies rooms: beware,
as these light leaves bagged up in plastic,
never to decompose or fertilize
When my balls are finally big enough to do it
I don't want no casket, no saddle,
no seethrough plastic mask,
no seethrough plastic mask
and if you do leave the earth
when the earth leaves you
cold and hard as a marble table top
there's no hip-hip-hop-hooray
keeping Heaven's golden-barbed gateway,
no bright confetti, high-step march, ticker tape parade
There's no mound of clouds to lounge on,
no mound of clouds to lounge on