Matthew was a wised-up kid
Before the rest of us did
That you have to be married"
And I don't know why I felt so scared
I just knew I didn't want to wear
Jackie was the first to hide
Kept all of his better feelings inside
He said, "I know I love you, but
And tucked away in some back bed
Like a ghost of something dead
I know I'm not an independent woman
So you might say, "Well, really
And nothing ever scared me like
And I filled my head with so much shit
And I dreamed and I dreamed of it
Of love and it's opposite