I felt this thing in the bayonet
when I brought it to the banquet
Blanketed under my clothing
Loathing every second
I was beckoned by a higher molding
The foresight had me famished
Damaged by the light of a comet
Still I managed to dodge the bandage
I rode a planet unnamed across the Milky Way
In the name of passion for a woman
Had me broken to this day
I say it only because the way it went down
Shoulda went down different
More honest & not so innocent
The angle now was infinite
Lust is like an infant
Born between hormones & ignorance
Of consequence, it all makes sense
When the deed is done and over with
People get hurt, blamed and threatened
Put to shame due to lust
In my case disregardin' a group of friendship
Letting my nuts drive my guts
She was my first time in the cuts
I couldn't help my feelings
Dealing with young & old, different attachments
Similar future goals
I apologize for the lies
And the crazy way I played them off
I wish I could turn back time
And make my wrongs right
But it's all night I dream about my past life
Whether innocent, recent, or way before
Lust is a dirty whore
It's who I'm watching for
Immobilized by lust, retire every possibility
Killing trust with erratic emotion, excitement, and agility
Adolescent conformity to the painful deception
Of sex, lies, and friendship; the faultiest connection
I didn't used to know about throwing salt on the game board
The naming game brought sore to throat
So I knew what I came for
I was torn back like a bottle-top
To disenchant my senses
My friends chanted "jump the fence"
Don't void the infections
The whole world I knew collapsed
Over a girl I knew elapsed
Pictures moving through so fast
I thought I wasn't about to last
My mass was cracked
From a windstorm of twisted facts
Didn't know how to act
Ditching class like a nervous rat
Surrounded by cats with massive appetites
Half the night I surrounded myself
With all the possible outcomes
How come it all came down so hard?
Obsession yanked my car from the middle yard
Shouldn't have fiddled with empathy
For a lust so dangerous
So what should I do?
Immobilized by lust, retire every possibility
Killing trust with erratic emotion, excitement, and agility
Adolescent conformity to the painful deception
Of sex, lies, and friendship; the faultiest connection