I have died inside, my heart is subdued
I have despoiled all I hold most true
What remains of me is but a shell
An outer vision of an inner hell
I can never make this up to you
But I will never stop trying to
No matter how great the final cost
I can't yet believe that the fight is lost
Mea culpa
Mea maxima culpa
Forgive me, for I have sinned
There is nothing I can do or say
To lift the weight of the guilt from me
No thought or word is left untouched
Everything reminds me of my fall
Never more to stray from the righteous path
And to temptation in scorn to laugh
This is my desire
My only need
For you to forgive this ill-thought deed
My spirits they are flagging
My moral standards gone
Plunged into this darkness
In turmoil thrown
Shaken by the depth of my descent
Is it too late for a sinner to repent?
I have been blind but you have to see
That we must walk together from this nether world
Even in this weakness my faith in you is strong
I believe you can look beyond this wrong
Mea culpa
Mea maxima culpa
Forgive me, for I have sinned
There is nothing I can do or say
To lift the weight of the guilt from me
No thought or word is left untouched
Everything reminds me of my fall
Never more to stray from the righteous path
And to temptation in scorn to laugh
This is my desire
My only need
For you to forgive this ill-thought deed
The truth of what we were I have seen too late
Torn apart and cursed by my rising self-hate
In this act most hateful I put us to the test
I will see the strength of your love confessed
No more am I the servant of slavish lust
I feel stripped and flayed by my self-disgust
To the raging furies I am laid bare
And in truth, about myself I do not care
Mea culpa
Mea maxima culpa
Forgive me, for I have sinned
There is nothing I can do or say
To lift the weight of the guilt from me
No thought or word is left untouched
Everything reminds me of my fall
Never more to stray from the righteous path
And to temptation in scorn to laugh
This is my desire
My only need
For you to forgive this ill-thought deed
And I never meant to hurt you
I never thought I could
In this deceitful world
I wanted to be true
And I never meant to hurt you
I never thought I could
In this deceitful world
I am also untrue