I am a man of denial
Digging treasures so defiled
Will the violence take its toll?
Will obsession take my soul?
Feeling like an unborn creep
Masturbating in my sleep
Seeking out external host
The parasite that is my ghost
Praying for the ones I hurt
Dig my bed, sleep in the dirt
Chopping ground I've lost my way
Trading words for what I say
Now I look at what I've dug
See my harvest, only mud
In my storms of long-held rage
Clawing the walls of my cage
Sun is down and I can't sleep
Suicide is just a dream
See my dreams fell in the hole
Such a long, long time ago
Fever builds up in my brain
Dried and burning in the rain
Taking back all I have said
I won't rest 'til I am dead