Not Even Close

You like to think that you know me

But perhaps don't even like me

I'm sure it's not unexpected

That any love will be rejected

I'm not eccentric in any way

Just watching my vulnerability

I'm just fed up with fake friends

I think I'll keep my thoughts to myself

You think that you're close to me

But I can see through you all

I used to think everyone was nice

But now I realize it's for a price

Too many people love themselves

So much they can't love anyone else

Used to say things secretly

Now say a word and it's used against me

Fed up with bitching backstabbers

I now know who my real friends are

So easy to say paranoid

A subject that you like to avoid

Don't really know a thing about me

Won't get to know me personally

Just believe what you are told

Isn't it just easier that way?

Take advantage of my good nature

Confide then turn around and hurt you