What didn't kill me left me
cold enough to live this lie
ow I drift desensitized
reality has had it's way with this time
Confidence now lost
in comfort of familiar habits
I know it's destructive
but I can not get past
this barricade I boiled up inside
too high, i've got to pull out
of numbing phase
Hold down this fear
push back self-doubt
I'm most afraid that I
will fall to failure
so much to say
can't get it out
it's all a waste
chaste, forced to indignant taste
self-propelled rejection
it's more than I can take
(right now)
so sick of hiding from what I can't face
so sick of hiding from what I can't face
i must get through this wall of insecurity
the thought of rejection more than i can take
and I've got to get out of this
umb phase, set numb phase