Plague

Seahaven
Satan sleeps inside my brain and when he wakes he takes me far away. He takes me to this place, that I completely hate, where I'm a prisoner in my own body. I cannot escape, I'm just a rat in a maze, and he sleeps less and less with the the days coming. So I beg and beg, crawling on my knees, "depart from me." But He won't.
The ocean isn't any louder while the city sleeps.
We just aren't there to wash it out when were occupied with dreams.
A good friend once told me that "darkness only confirms what we cannot see."
Well I sunk underground and I'm laughing now because I finally understand what it means.
This is me, this is my disease.
So take your mud and water and please let me see.
I do not know what I believe.
But if you really Loved me, you'd set me free.
I need to know I can but when I let my head fall, I see I'm walking on nothing but clay.
I need to leave you behind, conduct a cut and run, just like my father before me.
You little serpent, little cancer, little poison, little death. You are my worst at its best.
You are a dirty dog in this field of flowers. What is a thief to do with nothing left to steal?
There's a war inside my head, a brilliant display of death.
Even with the chemicals gone, there's still blood everywhere.
A friend says "send yourself back home, and heal your deepest wounds.
And if the scars they leave can't be ignored, remember none of this is real."
What a simple solution to prescribe when you aren't haunted like house.
You could perch the universe atop my shoulders, it wouldn't even cast a shadow now.
I've got a mountain to move.