I feel like I've been breathing out of an exhaust pipe/
On the job site/
With a fist full of brittle sand/
Should have seen it coming/
A mile away from the little hill in which I'm making stand on/
It makes a man of me (doesn't it?)/
And if it never kills me then I get a pass/
Wish I could've opened up the air around me just a little bit so I could take a gasp/
Who the hell is watching?/
Put a notch in my belt/
Keep it on the tracks/
Shoulda woulda coulda never made a difference/
When you're playing chicken with your only chance/
But it made a man of me, right? Mad man/
That gotta dance around and play his sounds/
Wish I knew back then what I know now/
Yeah/
Look at me now!/
Dodging forever/
Spending a fortune to figure it out/
I don't believe it/
Never learned how/
All of this pressure is driving me wild/
Look at me now/
(2x)
I'm starting to feel like it's stacking on my shoulders/
Another soldier with little patience to see the dawn/
Fought a lot of odds/
In the name of cause/
Put em in a box buried in the lawn/
But I learned a lesson from it/
Didn't I?/
And if I didn't who the hell is gonna teach me?/
I've been looking for answers/
And none of em ever offered a lesson that'll reach me/
Who can see me?/
Losing personal relationships like people do they house keys/
I've been outside/
Looking inside/
With a shadow casted all around me/
And they doubt me/
Try to throw a little part of me away with every frown/
Just wish they saw what I know now/
Yeah/
Look at me now/
Dodging forever/
Spending a fortune to figure it out/
I don't believe it/
Never learned how/
All of this pressure is driving me wild/
Look at me now/
(3x)