i called your name on the greyest day. you're the only one who
ever listened anyway. and it taught me something i guess i
already knew: i still want you. 'cause we touched like my dream
come true, that the tree beside my father's house would bloom
and fill his yard up with its sweet perfume and hide the scars i
carved in its arms for you. i make mistakes, then i'm on my way.
lock him out and the dog will finally stray, join the vandals, they
just want to be listened to; they just want proof. but i have been
a liar and a fool. i can forget anything that i want to.. except for the
image of you in your bedroom, where your body lies but your
eyes can't hide the truth. the night i left, come on, you were
grateful for the news. you never wept, just undressed and slept
till noon. a secret kept it a lover left unmoved, and so i lose. i
can't balance my brain, it's like a tightrope come loose. i'm tied
to the train tracks like a desperate cartoon. or i'm bare and i'm
blank, if i could pray i would thank saint jude. a lost cause too.