I am scarred from the actions of others
I am scarred from the actions of self
I am scarred by the times that I held back the storm
with no one to turn to, nobody else
I have risen beyond what I used to be
I have fought hard to gain what I lacked
But I stil hear the footsteps of my failures on my heels
and everything I thought Ieft behind is clinging to my back
I have made myself a fortress in pursuit of all my dreams,
but it's built upon my self-doubt and more fragile than it seems
I can struggle to forget that I've always felt alone,
but I can't escape the consequence of standing on my own
I've been broken
Nothing can make me whole again
I've been fighting battles that can't be won
Drowning in a sea of self-hate
Searching for an answer that never was
I've spent half of my life trying to kill my demons
and I'm frightened that the process
may have turned me into one of them
I've looked into the darkness of my personal abyss,
but I feel it staring back and it sees right through me
I am beaten but unbroken
I am bloodied but unbowed
And these years have left me shattered,
but I'll make it through somehow
I've been broken
Nothing can make me whole again
I've been fighting battles that can't be won
Drowning in a sea of self-hate
Searching for an answer that never was
I think that's probably why I've been alone all my life
I think that's probably why I am lost
and I'm scared that I can't find my way
I've spent half of my life trying to kill my demons
and I'm frightened that the process
may have turned me into one of them
I've looked into the darkness of my personal abyss,
but I feel it staring back and it sees right through me
Now I struggle to forget that I've always felt alone
and I can't escape the consequence of being on my own
I've been broken
Nothing can make me whole again
I've been fighting battles that can't be won
I've been tortured, shaped into what I am
Searching for what never was
Drowning in an endless sea of doubt