Self Delusion

Soul Control
can you watch your fear grow?
an inextinguishable belief upon past life.
or will you become so attached
to the one perceive that will cause you to grow
but will not love you back.
so you bury youself. so obsessed,
so depressed with success,
and never have the time you'll need to take whats left.
to compare ourselves
is there no shame? no shame in infliction of mass pain and guilt.
guilt is the sign to justificate and condemnate.
the violence anger and fear: is this the ideal or just the actual?
addicted to fear of growing old.
addicted to the present moment as my passions explode.
addicted to another's mind-body-control.
you've got a mind?
i've got a mind of my own
so i'll explore all the reasons why this world,
it moves, it only moves in reverse
surroundings that manipulate our lives.
so i'll keep one eye on the self,
and the other on what drives.
this is my life. i must expose myself to myself.