"Do I deserve this?"
I ask myself, nervously
Looking deep into your eyes.
You smile back sadly,
We're ending so badly,
Though it's darkly funny, I guess.
Hopelessly I beg away,
Though you don't care what I say.
So I say we won't be "just friends"
And I walk away, I walk away.
And sometimes I stop and stare,
Though I know it's much better
If I just don't care.
Sometimes you stare back so long,
Why don't you just move,
Not keep me holding on?
God how I miss you
Now that I can't kiss you
And ask if you've had a good day.
My dreams are so lonely,
If we could've only
Managed to not throw it away.
But maybe it's better this way,
A thought you quietly conveyed.
As all my worst fears came true,
And night suddenly shrouded the day.
And sometimes I stop and stare,
Though I know it's much better
If I just don't care.
Sometimes you stare back so long,
Why don't you just move,
Not keep me holding on?
Your kindness is awfully cruel,
When it just keeps me in love with you like a fool.
And seeing you every day
Just serves to keep me here, pining away.
Your emotions seem to be
At odds with all of the things you told me. And when you smile my way
I almost expect you to say...
...that sometimes I stop and stare,
Though I know it's much better
If I just don't care.
Sometimes you stare back so long,
Why don't you just move,
Not keep me holding on?