Who I Am

So tired

So tired of this ordinary life

Waking to the nothing that I have

So angry

So angry with myself

For throwing away everything I had

I need to escape

Every mistake

Every breath I take just makes it worse

I need to believe

But all I do is bleed

And every time I breathe my lungs just hurt

This is who I am

Accept me if you will

I hide behind this mask

I hide behind these pills

This is who I am

Hate me if you must

But you'll never know how I feel inside

And how I don't believe in trust

So tired

So tired of being stabbed in the back

Betrayed by everyone I thought was sincere

So angry

So angry at the world

I tried to live in love but I can only live in fear

I need to find release

But the pain will just increase

And my mind feeds this disease with thoughts of loss

I need to find a love

To find out what I'm made of

But all along from up above the angels turn their back on all who's lost

This is who I am

I can't help the way I feel

The fire in my eyes and heart

Can never be concealed

This is who I am

A mess without a name

A shadow of a failure

It's always been this way

I want to find someone to help

I want to believe in someone else

I want to find out for myself

Just who I am

I want to find someone to help

I want to believe in someone else

I want to find out for myself

Just who I am