I down cups of sludge
And stay up forever
'Cause I'm too afraid of what happens
When I fall asleep
Can't drift away
If you keep on holding tight
Trust me, it's not worth the fight
Baby I swear that
I don't really know if I'm lying to you
Or hiding the truth from myself
I'm sorry I'm numb
But you deserve to feel dumb
If you thought I was somebody else
I know that you checked my pulse
To see if I was freaking out
'Cause you were freaking out
But I remain comatose
From coast to coast
'Cause everyone I care about
Is miles away
Can't figure out the words to say
That I made a mistake
It's not my fault
If I can't see
How you could fall so easily
And I am never going to be
What you saw inside of me
I'm thinking of
Reasons not to love you
Ways I can push you away
And it's safe to assume
When you step in this room
You should thank your stars for everyday
I don't really know if I'm lying to you
Or hiding the truth from myself
I'm sorry I'm numb
But you deserve to feel dumb
If you thought I was somebody else