I can’t explain it
I can’t find the words right now
But I feel like I’m drowning
With no water holding me down
The fear clenches up my fists
And I mourn this life I’ve never lived
With feeling the day will soon stop
But never did
And these tears prick my eyes
No matter the place or time
And oh how they’ve fallen
I couldn’t even say why
As the water meets my chin
I still feel full to the brim
And I curse these eyes
That can’t seem to hold them in
And I feel tired all the time
I have a lover
He calls me a woman but I
Feel like a child who needs
Cradling all of the time
And I know if this carries on
I’ll lose him to another one
So I clasp my hand to heart
And try to be calm
And I feel tried all the time
So tired of this longing for his touch
All I need is his love